we are here for you bro, and stop that suicidal talk, that solves nothing bro. You are a good bro, and you have a lot of living to do. Keep your head up, and I will keep you in my prayers. Keep positive man. try to remember no matter how hard it gets, I can garantee you there are those who have it far worse than you do. There are guys on this board who I won't discuss there problems but are in situations that are pretty extreme right now. The main thing is to keep pushing on bro, suicide solves NOTHING. If you need anything, please contact me bro. I am available anytime, I mean it