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theartofwar

theartofwar

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Been having a lot of girl problems and a ton of family issues from cancer to pregnancys / divorce- these are not excuses - just back drop.

I have stayed clear from OCs and H - but I am having so much trouble, I've been drinking blackout everynight - met another girl and we got some (molly) mda - and ended up being reall realllll speedy , but I was so fucking lonely and anyone whose rolled knows how close you feel to the girl - we fucked a lot that night, it was a great time - i hadn't touched mda or mdma in over a yearand half.

How you d oyou guys break lonely slumps - family probs etc i've spent nearly 2,300$ in 5 days binging away - all I have to show for it is empty pocket and now 3 girl problems instead o dealing with one girl. I'm 24 - I'm immature in a lot of ways, in a lot of ways I had to grow up very fast due to childhood shit leaving me with bad PTSD - i go to therapy, etc, but guys I need some input here. GIve me it real - I know drugs makin it worse, booze making it worse - but what bout the women they r coolfor most partim just so confuse
 
surround urself with friends hobbies and the gym... helps keep you occupied dont drink or use drugs cause ull feel good while on the high but when on the low ull feel even worst with all ur other problems to add to it... and try and deal with ur relationship before moving on to another girl
 
bro... you have completed the first part of the path of recovery... identifying you have a problem... just like you i used to be bad on drugs.... mainly cocaine....

First ---- Remove the negative people from your life... block them on social sites, delete numbers, break ties... even with the women u get high with and fuck... i know its hard but its most important....

second -- find shit to keep you busy... bike riding, walking, driving listening to music, drawing, fishing, lifting.... anything to keep you occupied and off dope....

third -- surround yourself with family and friends... sober ones!!!! start kickin it with them... going out to places other than bars...

Fourth -- Myself coming from a drug addict / dysfunctional family i used to get wrapped up in all the problems in my family... i used to let my family probs bring me down... therefore i would resort to drugs.... you have to worry about your problems nigga.... get your self better then focus on all that other bull shit and help others.... something i have learned in this world... only fucking thing you can trust is your dog... and children if you have them.... so in the end just look out for Theartofwar....

Five -- Stay strong keep ya head high... get ya ass back into the game... life will shit on ya if you let it... and dont let a little dope run you.... its sighs of a weak person that lets drugs control them.... tellin ya like it is.... either you want to get clean or your weak....


best of luck man
 
black7 said:
bro... you have completed the first part of the path of recovery... identifying you have a problem... just like you i used to be bad on drugs.... mainly cocaine....

First ---- Remove the negative people from your life... block them on social sites, delete numbers, break ties... even with the women u get high with and fuck... i know its hard but its most important....

second -- find shit to keep you busy... bike riding, walking, driving listening to music, drawing, fishing, lifting.... anything to keep you occupied and off dope....

third -- surround yourself with family and friends... sober ones!!!! start kickin it with them... going out to places other than bars...

Fourth -- Myself coming from a drug addict / dysfunctional family i used to get wrapped up in all the problems in my family... i used to let my family probs bring me down... therefore i would resort to drugs.... you have to worry about your problems nigga.... get your self better then focus on all that other bull shit and help others.... something i have learned in this world... only fucking thing you can trust is your dog... and children if you have them.... so in the end just look out for Theartofwar....

Five -- Stay strong keep ya head high... get ya ass back into the game... life will shit on ya if you let it... and dont let a little dope run you.... its sighs of a weak person that lets drugs control them.... tellin ya like it is.... either you want to get clean or your weak....


best of luck man
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Good advice, Black, if you want to get your head right, only YOU can do it. Next time you feel like life's shit, go to your local airport when they briing injured vets home from the sandbox, pay particular attention to the ones a lot younger than you who are missing limbs and ask yourself "Are things really that bad for me?"

Those are the people whose lives have been torn apart and the majority of them will have meaningful and fulfilling lives, you're one step ahead of them, you don't have limbs missing.
Time is a great healer, get your positive head on and work through each day, stay clean and aim for that place where you will be happy.


Good luck buddy!
 
Don't forget that sex can be like a drug.
I don't mean it's bad, but when you chase it for a fix only to wake up empty and wanting more, then something else, more important in your life, is missing.

Molly is good to a point, but after awhile you have to carry the feeling with you for it to really matter.
Went down that road and got close to the edge, until I realized that other's depended on me whether I wanted them to or not, and their lives would be negatively changed forever without me, then I woke up with a desire to accomplish more.

If you are depressed, seriously, pull some weeds and work the earth.
There is more therapeudic essence in that act then you could ever imagine.
It's all there, challenge, daring, the unknown, trust, emphasis, desire, will, and conquest.
Plus, it will give you restful sleep.
 
Hitting the iron has been my outlet for decades. After a bust-ass leg or back workout, my mind is usually left blank and stress-free for the next 4-5 hours. Alcohol and/or drugs is the LAST thing you wanna do to attempt to "counter" problems brutha.
 
thanks guys - two nights ago I got run over in a hit and run @ 45mph -my luck is not going well. My head is up - I have just worked very hard to get where I am and right now my muscles are torn off my shins / tears in my quads on inner thighs - cracked hip - doctor said if i wasn't size i was I wouldve been dead easily,I guess i absorbed a decent amount.

I was taking a girl out to party, we cross road and two fucking rice racers come flying outta nowhere and she just yells "watch out" - not a single break, the car nails me , stops for 2 seconds, drives right the fuck out. Now police are trying to find civic w/a body kit - grey color - with bashed windshield. My medical bills are really rough,so hopefully this asshole gets found - I just cannot afford it right now :(
 
good luck these days brother :P - spirits are up though, for real.

Some things simply are out of my control - those that are in my control - I am not fucking up.Even turned down my script for OCs - god damn never been in more pain in my life brother, been in ICU for 5 days on another accident, been shot, none of it compares. I just want to cut my fucking legs off Grrr.
 
Damn, you are being tested greatly.
I hope they catch the douche.
Be thankful your training built a sound foundation.
I hope you heal quickly.
 
Thanks guys - the first few days away from the hit - it wasn't near as bad - the pain has been unbearable as of late - I feel as if I have constant whip lash 24/7 - my legs are incredibly dark purple on the calves and my hip is creeking away.

My girl has kept me in good spirits - it's very hard mid cycle to have this sort of thing happen - but I'm not coming off any year soon so it's no big deal I guess. I will be starting my HGH run soon , hopefully this will help out with the recovery - gonna be at 6ius for first couple months which is much higher than I normally would run.

Turned down two scripts for OC 40s , 80s - I cannot go back down that road - I am so fucking fed up being a slave to rec drugs.

About a night or so ago it really hit me one in a hundred survive at impacts of 45mph - I am very blessed to be here - it has been weighing on my heart - making me value everything much more. I'm going for my personal trainer license this summer soon as im back up and at it - then hoping to open my gym with my business partner. Let's hope some / if not all of this works out guys , I really am trying to keep my spirits up. Thank you very much for the kind words - it has been hard :(.
 
u might not want to hear this but u might consider taking a break from aas right now till u get everything in ur life straightened out, cuz juice can help fuck ur mind up a lil bit either when coming off or when ur on at a high or w.e.... like for me personally its sorta like a drug in the sence when im on it i a feel like superman a king and when im off it im down for a lil bit before i bounce back
 
I don't come off brother - lowest I go is 200/250mg week of cyp or enth.

I dunno - I have to talk to a specialist atm - so I'm off , will be back with more updates.

I do know that my left calve has to be opened and somehow drained ? My left foot barely has a pulse so the swelling is stopping blood circulation :(. Ugh. fml man haha. I'm glad I got some good people in my corner for real. Times like these show you who your friends really are for sure.
 
how long have u been on for? why dont you come off? i think ud get better results cycling on and off, thats from my friends personal experience he was on for 2 years straight when he came off he couldnt get his dick up for 6months
but once he was recovered he cycled hard still but he came off
and gave his body a rest and seemed to get better results
 
Oh currently brother I have only been on for 4 months - there are some very real reasos why i do not come off - I pill PM you and explain - I go to the high end of HRT (lol 250mg week) and give it couple months then I start my next cycle.
 
I'm coming off - sarms s4 / hgh (we will see how legit it is in time here) - my hit and run accident has left my leg drained routinely, and it hasn't let me in the gym - it's time to accept you plan everything but you cannot plan on the fact life is not fair - I had a damn good thing going - and I can get it back (hopefully without being nailed by a car lol) - I've gone back and forth between good choices and what my mind tells me to do - it's time to listen to others and chill out for a bit. Esp since it's been weeks since I could train. Thanks brothers.
 
Just a quick update - I am off atm - I love SARMs , stuff is great - but it's very hard to gauge shit cuz im in Physical therapy a lot because of getting nailed by that car....things have been very depressing - my life was getting back online, dedicated to iron and how to be sucessfull - this accident kept me laid up for near a month now and I severely miss my schedule , my routines.

From an OC addict over 7 years - once you break free you absolutely MUST keep yourself busy, find happiness in life in ways you had forgotten about - when I used I hustled and then sat around and used ...... difference here is that I don't justle anymore I still have the fucking nightmares of wanting to escape and use though during this period. One more week, one fukcing more week and PT is done... fingers crossed praying for strength. I despise being a slave to a substance, nothing is more humiliating or emasculating ijn my case. Thx for advice brothers and ladies.
 
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